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Monday, April 11, 2011 @ 11:20 PM
I will be blogging about my friend in this post. Or should i say, she used to be my friend. Her nickname is Joker. I may not know her for long, but i can say i treat my friends quite well. No matter how many things people say about her, i still stay neutral and be there for her when she need someone. However, she did something that i will never forgive her. When i just had my breakup, my confidence level was really down, i couldnt get over my ex bf and move on with my life. Well, i went through quite alot of match making session. Haha! Until one day, she gave my number to a guy and i shall name him, Mr E. She said like know new friends and stuff. So he text me and we texted for about 2 months. But within these 2 months, his text was so little. What i know at that time through joker was that he's a shy person. And of course, i believe in what she said. Slowly, there were surprises by him. But those surprises were not given directly to me. He passed those flowers and presents to joker, then joker passed it to me. Amazingly, i think he's such a sweet person who manage to give me surprises. Cause it's very dfficult for people to surprise me as i always know what they're going to do. Within that 2months, i saw him about a couple of times but didnt really interact with him cause Joker said he's a shy person and i dont really talk to people if that person dont bother to talk to me first. At times, Joker will be telling me that he like me or interested in me just that he dont dare to take action. And i actually thought i was special so confidence increase to the max.. It did make me feel stronger and i did move on with my life. And then on new year's day, Joker told me that he has been mia for quite some time and suspect that he went to jail. I was really shocked. As he bought me present for christmas and i didnt receive it cause he asked joker to pass it to me. Roughly about 2-3 weeks later, Joker gave me a call to tell me about him in jail. Shocking enough. Then i went to meet Joker and she passed the present to me. That present was a compass and it has a letter in it. The meaning of giving me a compass is that i will be able to find his heart, no matter where he is. And at the end of the letter, it stated " really had feelings for you" with his/her signature on it. His/her handwriting was atrocious. At that moment, i really think that that present came abit too late and i had tears on my eyes but i didnt cry. After receiving the present, i kept looking at it and had those regret feeling. A couple of times, i saw Mr E online fb. But i didnt ask him as Joker told me that maybe it's his brother that is using his acc. Foolishly, i believe in her words. Then later, me and joker were no longer friends. Dont ask why, cause i may take the whole night to explain it. I started thinking about this whole Mr E thing, isit for real or fake. After that i didnt think much or should i say, i couldnt be bothered with it anymore. Before i went bkk on the 18thMarch, my flight is at 7am, and i had to head to the airport at bout 5plus. I decided not to sleep that night, so i went fb. Guess what, i saw Mr E uploading his friend's photo on fb. I clicked on his fb profile and saw a photo of his latest cny photo with that long hair and all. Exactly that guy that i saw that time. At that time, my mind was all about calling Joker and scold her for lying to me all these while. But then i think again, i couldnt be bothered with her anymore, even if i were to do that it would just ruin my holiday mood to BKK. Since that day, she proved me wrong like totally~ I wrote about the letter above that has his/her handwriting right.. was me suspecting that letter was written by Joker. Cause that handwriting was so atrocious until my name was written as ioame and his signature was ended with something like Adam. At this point of time, i can say Joker is really a "GOOD" friend by setting this up. I should have listened to what my friends said about this Mr E issue. But all along, i didnt like to judge people by what others tell me. This is what i get in return for not judging and it totally destroyed my confidence. Well done. Fuck you, Joker.
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